Hurm.. Again n again.. Just bored with this feeling.. Tired with all of this feeling.. I start to hate dreaming something higher.. But what can i do? All this years, i membesar dgn satu angan².. Hoping that one day someone can give me a better life.. Life that i will never be sad.. Seriously, I'm tired crying over this.. I'm tired with this life.. Dulu, i always pray that one day there's someone can give me that.. But today, i stop praying for that.. I want to stop praying for something that it might give me "harapan palsu".. I will just follow all of it.. So it wont hurt me anymore.. 😢
My life is like a fairytale.. When i was childhood, i have my hero.. He is the one praying that he could give me everything.. Never hurt me.. All he knows is spend time with me n be happy.. But god didnt send him forever to be my hero.. If i could turn back time, i just want to stay in my childhood.. But it is just a dream that will never come true..
I just need some space.. Sorry if there's broken english.. I wrote this blog while i'm sad.. N of course i dont have much time to think about it.. I just nak luahkan apa yang i x dapat nak luah dengan kata² before i sleep n forget it.. At this time, i just want someone to hug me.. Urghh😤 but i dont have one.. Hoping that one day.. Whoever that be the prince in my life knows that i need a hug when i am sad..
I may look tough..but i am fragile inside..
If you want to ask me how many times i cried in my life, i pn x tahu.. Coz when i cry, i just hoping that, after this i will never cry.. But it just a 'hope' that will never happened..
Hoping that this tears n sadness will dissapear after i wake up from my sleep..
From,
Crying crazy girl😢
